Well, yesterday call was very good, and when it was over, I was thinking: How will I do to not have a negative thought?!?! And then I realized: not for an hour or a day, but for 7 days!!! The first that came to my mind was: I won’t do it! And had to start again… the good thing for me was that 2 hours later I was sleeping and I wasn’t able to think negative, not consciously at least, so my last thought was: tomorrow I will not have a negative thought.
And, believe it or not, I woke up and a positive thought! I go to woke up my kids and… a positive thought! I went down stairs to have breakfast and… have to start with the exercise seriously: I was late!!! Seems that my positive thoughts were using most of my attention and I did not pay attention at the time… and no, I didn’t had to start over again, I breathe and count 1 to 6, because until 7 I would had to start over, so, I concentrate and helped my lovely wife to get on the car to drive the kids to school and me at my truck to go working and count 1 to 6 again: my wife’s battery car was dead, and what did I do? Calmly I told her and my kids: “Get on to my truck, I will drive you to school and also you, honey, I’ll drive you to your job” and the 3 of them were like in shock, like if they didn’t had an idea who was talking to them, and like in an automatic action, they got on the truck, and the trip was for me: ” not negative thought… not negative thought” but It was not for long, after 5-7 mins of driving, it was like a gift for us that the car did not ignited: my kids were very happy, it was the first time in months I drove them to school, and my wife was also happy, not for me driving them, but for me being different, normaly, in cases like this one, I scream, got angry, and I realized that she noticed the difference… my family notice the difference.
The rest of the day, after that morning, was really easy to have positive thoughts, it was easiest than be thinking in not having a negative thougth.
And by the time I write this post, I feel an internal peace, this is strange and good, it encourages me to continue.